Shortcomings

I wanted to take a month and write about a single topic. Sort of a challenge to myself. But before I could even start writing the first paragraph, things began to fall apart. The renters up and left with only an email notification the day they took off. The rental house needs a lot of repairs (as usual) but with a lot of painting added to the work load. I'm pushing to get it done since now there is a short time limit so it can be ready to rent again.

My hands are dry from the cleaning stuff, and my back hurts from bending over so much. I'm pretty much tired all the time. When did I get so old? I don't remember ever having so many aches and pains. My frustration level is easier to hit and my desire to blow up the house keeps making me imagine an action sequence from a movie. Boom! What? It's gone? Wow, no I have no idea how that happened... (grin). But I would never do it because I'm sensible.

I'm doing everything right. I work hard, eat right, watch my health, and have friends and family whom I love and who love me. However I never feel like I'm getting anywhere and that all my hard work is useless. Worse yet, I'm getting to old to keep up the massive work for much longer. Then I look into the eyes of my guy and I realize that it's going to be ok. Thank God for him, otherwise I'd be sitting in the dark watching TV, crying and eating lots of fattening food.

I find as I get older all I want to do is simplify my life. Except for him... I want more of him than I have ever wanted of anything in my life. So once again my shortcomings are keeping me from my goal. But I am happy to say that as shortcomings go, he's an awesome one!

So here's to writing, working, loving and living. May your shortcomings bring you some happiness!